burn·out - ˈbərnˌout'
I tried to do it all.
I tried to have a career with the ballet, with a side career in photography, with a side side career in social media coaching.
I tried having a couple thousand hobbies including crafting and gardening and reading and playing video games and cooking and editing photos and doing yoga and hiking and and and AND...
I tried to improve my meaningful relationships and create new ones.
I tried to squeeze every last quenching drop out of life because tomorrow it could all damn well be gone. Poof. Finished.
The problem is, I didn't prioritize. I didn't force myself to figure out what was really important to me and what could take a back seat without effecting my Happiness Bottom Line. Trying to do all the things all the time led me to only give 50% of myself and my effort. That's when everything in my life began to suffer.
So, I took a break. I let go of yoga. I let go of coaching. I stopped seeking new photography clients. The only thing I really threw myself into during the last six months was the ballet and enjoying the people around me.
Other things happened during this time, some good things and some bad things. Losing all the photos on my hard drive was painful (I ended up getting them all back). But turning 30 surrounded by the best people a gal could ask for was pretty spectacular.
Ultimately, I realized that I desperately missed taking photos. Whether it was of scenery or my dogs or spring flowers or tiny, adorable clients, I just missed having a camera in my hand. There are some photo opportunities at the ballet and I take them when time permits but the limitations in availability and creativity are not enough.
So, I'm back. I don't plan on taking every job or attempting to fill every weekend with photo shoots, I just want to it to be a part of my life again.
I'm looking forward to rediscovering all the things that led me down this path in the first place. I'm also hoping to learn knew things that will help enhance my photography and push my limits within this medium. Regardless of what happens, of who is listening, I'm glad to be sharing photos again.
Note: These photos were taken on our recent trip to Sol Duc Hot Springs in the Olympic National Forest.
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